malam yang panjang

awak
malam ni saya masih belum dapat melelapkan mata
seperti malam-malam sebelum ni
susahnya saya nak menahan air mata ni tumpah dari kolam mata saya
saya penat awak
menangisi kekecewaan hati saya
saya x ada tempat untuk mengadu
sebab awaklah tempat mengadu saya selama ini
saya tak mampu berkongsi perasaan dengan orang lain
semuanya terpaksa saya pendamkan seorang diri
sakit sangat rasanya
awak tau tak...saya rasa sakit sangat
saya nak bangkit dari kesedihan ni
tapi saya tak punya kekuatan...
saya rasa lemah sangat...

Quote

Everytime I hurt because you were gone, I never regretted what we had because you were the one who made me happy

missing you...

Every morning I wish it were night again,
for it is only at night and in the depth of my dreams that I can feel you,
and you still belong to me.

Love is hard to get,
but harder to let go.

Love is short,
but forgetting is long.

You'll never understand why I hurt so much
because you're not the one who is crying,
you're not the one who is left behind,
you're not the one who loved too much,
and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone...

You don't have to let it slip away but you want to,
I don't want to let it slip away but I have to.

It is only when I realized I could lose you
that I realized I could never lose my love for you.

Loving someone doesn't mean
you have to be with that someone,
because sometimes fate plays on us
and we are not meant to be together.
But still, there is love between us.

failing love...

I thought I loved him,
but he had to break my heart for me
to know what true love really is.

A failing love is like desperately
hanging on to something precious;
not wanting to give up,
but your hands feel the pain.
And, when you finally let go,
you're free from any pain,
but your hands are empty.

What do you live for when all
you were living for is gone?

We cannot beg someone to stay
if they want to leave
We have to admit that love
doesn't give us the license to own a person.
This is what love means...sacrifice.

Deep in my heart, I'm suffering,
knowing that I've lost you.
On the outside, I'm living,
pretending that I've forgotten you

I just want one day to go by
where I'm not pretending I'm happy!

Once upon a time I was falling in love,
but now I’m only falling apart.

I could fill a thousand pages
telling you how I felt
and still you would not understand.
So now I leave without a sound,
except that of my heart shattering
as it hits the ground.

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh,
but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry.

Broken mirror

A break up is like a broken mirror.
It is better to leave it broken
than hurt yourself trying to fix it.

I can't escape the thought of you.
Even in my dreams you are there.
It's not fair how your gone,
and how you're moving on so fast,
while I am still living in the past.

Breaking up is not a stupid thing;
instead it makes you a better person
and realize your mistakes.

Letting go of someone dear to you is hard,
but holding on to someone
who doesn't even feel
the same is much harder.
Giving up doesn't mean you are weak!
It only means that
you are strong enough to let go!

Breaking up is just like
having the worst nightmare after
having the best dream.

Sometimes we tend to be in despair
when the person we love leaves us,
but the truth is, it's not our loss,
but theirs, for they left the only person
who wouldn't give up on them.

If your love does not work with that person,
it just means that
someone else loves you more.

If you can't save the relationship,
at least save your pride.

When you love him
- truly love him,

terima kasih

awak,
terima kasih sebab awak sudi temankan saya makan malam tadi
saya gembira awak ada disebelah saya
saya cuba untuk berlagak selamba
saya cuba untuk ceria
tapi, hakikatnya...
saya rasa sakit sangat awak...
saya cuba untuk menahan air mata ini dr tumpah...
saya rindukan awak...
saya nak nyatakan rasa cinta dan rindu tu pada awak
tapi saya sedar...
saya x layak untuk buat begitu lagi

awak,
saya nampak cincin itu...
awak dh jadikan keychain di telefon awak
saya sedih sgt awak
maafkan saya awak

If....

If I never met you,
I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you,
I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you,
I wouldn't miss you.
But I did, I do, and I will.

hmm...

hidup tak selalu indah...
tapi yang indah itu sentiasa hidup dalam kenangan

awak x sehat

awak,
semalam awak sms saya
awak mengadu awak tak sehat
awak cakap awak masih sayang
dan akan sentiasa menyayangi saya

awak,
sedih hati saya bila tau awak tak sehat
saya nak berada disisi awak
saya nak temankan awak
tapi, siapalah saya ni

maafkan saya awak
saya tak dapat temankan awak
walaupun itu yang saya inginkan

When girls cry...

If a girl cries in front of u,
It means that she couldnt take it anymore.

If u take her hand,
she would stay with u for the rest of ur life.

If u let her go, she couldnt go back to
being herself anymore.

A gurl won’t cry easily,
except in front of the person whom she
loves the most,
she becomes weak.

A gurl wont cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a gurl cries bcoz of u,
please hold her hands firmly,
coz she’s the one who is willing to stay
with u 4 for the rest of ur life.

Guys, if a gurl cries bcoz of u,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision,
u ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of u,
When she cry bcoz of u,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she’s
feeling?

Think….

Which other gurl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of u,
And bcoz of u?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,

She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt n agony have bcome too big a
burden to be kept inside.

Guys,
Think about it,
If a gurl cry her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only u will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may b too late for regrets,
It may b too late to say “im sorry”.
think about it.

“Appreciate and love those around u so that u’ll
never regret when it is too late..”

* petikan dr email *

kerana awak

awak,
suatu hari awak datang mengetuk pintu hati saya...
awaklaa yang pertama berjaya mengetuk dan menakluki hati saya

awak,
awak tau kn yang saya amat takut untuk mencintai dan dicintai...
saya takut andai saya disakiti
tapi, awak cakap awak xkan sakiti saya...
saya percayakan awak

awak,
tanpa luahan kata cinta ini terjalin
atas dasar perasaan kita yang saling memahami
indahnya kenangan itu...

awak,
hari-hari yang kita lalui terasa begitu indah
disusuli kenangan-kenangan manis
suka duka kita lalui bersama

awak,
saya x pernah kesah
saya terima diri awak seadanya
sebab saya yakin
awak mampu jadi lebih baik

awak,
terima kasih....
sbb sudi menyayangi diri saya
sbb sudi melayan kerenah saya
sbb sudi berkorban untuk saya
terima kasih di atas segala-galanya...

awak,
maafkan saya...
andai saya banyak menyusahkan awak
andai saya banyak menyakiti awak
andai saya tidak mampu memahami awak
sebab saya cuma insan biasa....

awak,
hari ini bukan lagi semalam yang indah
saya terpaksa harungi segalanya seorang diri
tiada lagi awak untuk saya bermanja
tiada lagi awak untuk saya berkongsi segalanya
tiada lagi awak untuk memujuk saya
tiada lagi awak untuk menemani saya

awak,
macammana saya nak teruskan kehidupan ini tanpa awak?
langkah saya longlai tanpa awak
hidup saya sepi tanpa awak
jiwa saya kosong tanpa awak

awak,
awak taukan betapa hati ini begitu mencintai awak...
betapa hati ini terseksa...

awak,
apepun saya doakan yang terbaik untuk awak
moga awak temui orang yang lebih baik untuk mencintai awak
orang yang awak akan lebih hargai

tiada kepastian

Berkawan tidak semestinya bercinta,
Bercinta tidak semestinya bertunang,
Bertunang tidak semestinya berkahwin,
So, jangan mengharap pada sesuatu yang tiada kepastian lagi.
Kerana seandainya apa yang anda harapkan tidak tercapai,
Ia mungkin akan melukakan hati dan melemahkan semangat anda untuk terus hidup..

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